It's the last day of 2011. It's bright and sunny outside, the cars are zooming past because traffic isn't horrendous yet and many people I know won't be around to celebrate it with me. Everyone's got their own thing going on this year.

I have a party to go to later tonight but right now I really couldn't be bothered.

Things to be thankful about in 2011:
- Family
- Friends
- New acquaintances
- Tape Melbourne
- Finishing year one of ID in RMIT (three more to go!)
- First Raya in the apartment
- Comfort in a new city
- Being loved by the ones who matter
- Events that herald new traditions

Summation of 2011 in 3 words:
- Change, Reaction, Success

2011, Wish it didn't happen:
- Put on weight from not exercising

Looking forward to 2012:
- *ehem*
- Strandbeest!
- Having the apartment to myself for a solid month
- The Awesome Forum**
- Year 2

Okay, it's set. I'll be ushering the new year by grounding myself, let the good vibes flowwwww...

** The Awesome Forum:
A communion of peoples for my birthday, pot-luck, music, games, drinks and amazing people mingling amazingly.

2012 is upon us and I have resolutions.

1. To be more direct with my feelings.

2. To stop (Actually do less of it, not cease completely) protecting people from their own vices, from their flaws, from other people's judgements towards them.
I have to stop making excuses for other people's bad behaviour when the topic turns up in another conversation. I am not their mothers. I am their friend. Everyone has flaws.

BUT.

What I dont like is when my friends tokkok about my other friends like they know each other when I've only let them be around each other a few times. If you want to tokkok, tok la... as long as there's truth in your words and not just your inaccurate, condescending and highly subjective point of view, please, could you just STFU. I will tell you honestly that ALL the people around me who are around me by their own accord are lovely and have a heart of gold and you have to remember that they too have flaws because they're human. So when these alleged flaws are impressed upon I WILL protect them for they have been unduly judged by those not of their peers.

3. Get rid of redundant people in my circle.

Honestly, this world is quick moving and result oriented. I'm not going to lie and say that I'm a peace loving hippy living here on planet earth to just trip and do nothing but exist in my own state of nothingness. No. I have an amazing future to work forward to with the people I know who can work WITH me. An empire will be built with an amazing group of people I hold dear. No, not all of them will be high flyers but they are an important member or society and will be the movers and shakers of the future.

Momo called me out on my classist/strata-ist nature but I say that it's not the social class/strata that I hate, it's the fact that they they have that particular class mentality. Complacency and this idea that things will be the status quo forever, the inability to look past tomorrow, or plan for something, or live for something, or to even realise that material posessions do not make a man or woman. It makes you dispensable, unimportant and insignificant because you become a product for the mass market, the capitalist society that we live in. Their gods are not supreme beings. Their gods are inanimate THINGS! I find it disgusting. They ARE the Soylent Green!

4. Work smarter, play wiser and be thankful for everything.
Life is not just about work. Life is about striving for better things while enjoying also being alive. Life is also about being thankful for the things you have that you needed because the things you want you can get later.

5. Plan. Plan. Plan.
If you fail to plan. you plan to fail..

In my room, on the bed with a laptop on my lap. Queens of the Stone Age is playing on my kick-ass stereo system and I'm eating leftover Blackout Cake. Delicious, delicious Blackout Cake. My mind is sedated, the day has been spent doing nothing in particular -- my favourite past time.


It's the day after a new RSGC Clan tradition: XMOOSE. Every 23rd now we celebrate with those we love. Take pictures and be merry. Next year it'll be held at another house. Maybe at Dee's so that we can have some vino and other happydrinkies. What I'd like to take to XMOOSE next year would be a significant other.

I've realised that I've gone back to hanging out with the people I hung out with as a child. They're comfortingly familiar, have no hang-ups and are pretty much on the same wavelength. Another thing I've realised is that it may possibly be an end of an era for the TTDI Clan. Grass of Patch will no longer be something to look forward to for New Year's Eve. Sure, we'll meet up and hang around once in a while but it's not something common anymore. Not that I won't want it to be but with most of them working, it's hard to find the time to stay up until ridiculous hours. Weekends are the only option and with my wide circle, care is taken to meet up and hang out with a majority of them. I'm not a social butterfly, I just like keeping in contact with people.

Happy Christmas to everyone, celebrating it or not, I wish you a Joyous family gathering and new year.

Sometimes in life you allow yourself to open your eyes and realise who around you is good for you and who around you isn't. Then it's just a matter of knowing, then, what to do with that information. Whether or not you wish to continue letting those around you be exposed to the horrid ones, be a hero and break it off or quietly suffer alone knowing that these individuals would eventually destroy you.

I am one of the few people whom, on occasion, choose to break ties as soon as possible because I value my sanity and health in the long-run. This has also given me an uncanny ability to judge whether a person is genuinely nice or not, barring other character flaws. I see the hearts of people. I see their humanity and I'd like to say that those I've stuck with for so many years are the most wonderful people I have had the honour to get to know.

Judge said this reminded him of me. I'm inclined to agree.

Now, where's my monocle and hat... and fake 'stache?

Right, so the Pre-Christmas potluck is on the 23rd of December for the RSGC Clan + some others. Keyword is 'potluck'.

It's also a secret santa thing so the namelist must be confirmed!

What shall I make?

Roast?

Anyway, it has somewhat dawned upon me that Apple users might have a disability whereby they cannot sample anything because they are so true to Apple and that has become their religion. This is confirmed when a friend of mine, an avid Apple fan, won an amazingly high-tech phone but he wants to sell it because he doesn't care to use it. Of course he's also thinking of the extra money he'll make but that's beside the point.

On another note, I'm looking at buying the Samsung Galaxy tab 10.1 wifi only tablet to replace the laptop because it's getting a wee bit old.
I need to troll Low Yat with a certified tech nerd, a nerd of nerds, that can nerdify nerds at lowyat. Nerding like a bawse.

The weekly agenda:

PHYSIO/OCCU ALL THE WEEKDAYS!
Visit gramma at LD8
YTF with May & Meng?
Pick up my much needed doshies and change it to ringgits
Make delicious desserty things to send to people
Get SOOPAHNACHOOREL from Lord Soso
Dd's party
Finish making costume props
Go costume shopping with the womenfolk
Volunteer rostering and emails to Renee

I cant think of anything else to do...

Next week?
Lunch with the womenfolk @ Crumbs
See Momo
Schedule meetings with the Raffles lot
Pester Nas into going to Levain for delicious bread things
Night out with the bros?

Random updates
Had a facial at Clarins, KLCC.
The twat is playing badminton.
I have problems with people typing o as 0 and it c0ming 0ut like it was written by a m0r0n. WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?!
Ugh... The beginning of the week.

My hair that once had blond streaks is now in the process of becoming red. Hells yeah!

There are several things that are driving me crazy at the moment, a few of which will be written down in my ranty secret blog of ranty-bloggyness because well, I can.

10 minutes before I wash the gunk off my head to reveal some sort of red hue. I'm not quite sure yet what to expect aside from it being red. Trivial. Consider this a random update post to tell you that I'm doing well here in KL. Spoke to Zi and she pretty much convinced me to go register for the RSGC membership as a long term investment and free-time killer. Ordinary membership in one of the most prestigious golf clubs in the heart of KL. Rubbing shoulders with the other bigwigs will be a daily occurrence. And three generations of my family already being members since the end of the world wars. AND and that the hall of fame already has several names I am overly familiar with. I grew up there and made lifetime friends there therefore I want my kids to do the same. I love RSGC. Everybody is somebody there so there's no brown-nosing or no-class OKBs, just friendly faces everywhere.

Add on after lunch:
Went for a year-end prize giving ceremony lunch thing at the Fairway. Didn't get to eat at the Rotunda cos Zi was still sleeping. Oh,well.

My hair is red :D

I should still be alseep. Why am I not alseep? I'm on holiday, damnit!

Oh, yay! May just passed me the phone unlock link. I am happy now that my changgih phone is once again usable! Oh, shit, I just got an invitation to a friend's wedding on the 10th and I have to find a plus one. Then I can wear nice-nice and they can tolak wheelchair. hahahahaha... But seriously, I'd probably die of boredom amidst people I don't know.

What's a wedding if not an excuse to flaunt the bride and groom and free food...

I remember telling a friend of mine who had recently gotten engaged that whoever had been invited, she only needed to worry about the immediate family because as luck would have it, you only saw the rest about once a year.

The in-laws are always another hurdle. There's always SOME problems when it comes to the in-laws. They may like you, they may not like you and so on and so forth.

I'm rambling on, time to practice the guitar.

I stop myself from dishing the dirty details of my inner self into this public blog for fear of judgement.

I am strong -- or I project an image of strength. .
I am stable -- or I project an image of stability.
I am unwavering -- but I can flicker in self doubt.
I am committed -- but I succumb to unsureness.
I am stone cold -- but it's a lie.

On a tangent,
Had a lovely chat with the Momo and the Kim during daylight hours and the Pup during the night.

Things ringing in my head:
I WILL DESTROY YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and
NUGGETS!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm back in KL and waiting to go to my friend's engagement this afternoon. Also I'm hungry and feeling extremely lazy.

Gotta wrap the present... Gotta wrap ALL the presents, even the ones for Christmas!

Was playing almost everywhere in Melbourne. It's a pretty song though.



Seriously, it's been on play for an hour already. Dengar sampai muak.

Ladies and gentlemen, Year one of the ID degree is OVER!

Credit and Distinction, yo.
Awesomesauce.

My mother has vetoed the arrival of the sheysha pot which means I have to buy one here. :(
The internet has too many, and I don't know which one to choose! Keeping it under 100 dollars.

Such a trivial day where I sit and wonder if I should paint my nails or just keep them nude.

Have to send a few emails out and wondering if I should go downstairs to get some sushi or some kind of lunch food.

Change of plans: Sent emails, went to vic market, didn't buy sushi.

I spent the whole day, aside from dinner with Pauline, re-watching The Alien Quadrilogy and still enjoy it. It reminds me how much I am
a) shit scared of those things
and
b) always in awe with Ellen Ripley. She will always be that one hero who kicked ass, died and then kicked ass again.

Her character always grew in badassery and command until the final series where she was the ultimate kickass and a lot more human than most people are with a lot less bullshit.

That is all for today. I have meandered enough.

WHY THE FFFFUUUUUUU IS THE DRYER STILL ON?!

So...

‎1 - Go to wikipedia and hit random. The first random wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.
2 - Go to quotationspage.com and hit random. The last four or five words of the very last quote of the page is the title of your first album.
3 - Go to flickr and click on “explore the last seven days”. The third picture, no matter ...what it is, will be your album cover.
4 - Use photoshop or similar (picnik.com is a free online photo editor) to put it all together.
5 - Post it with this text in the "caption" and TAG the friends you want to join in

Fuck that shit, this is blogged. I did not tamper with anything. This is the serious lol!

Photo is from Aignes who has the most amazing photos EVARRR...

I like words, no, I LOVE words. I have since my mom forced me to read the Peter and Jane series when I was really young. I have since my aunt showed me the world of magic and fantasy. I have since I realised words could make you and break you, hurt you, caress and love you, define you or destroyed you.

I also love words for the pretty poetry they make, long courageous journeys they unfold and hilariously dirty limericks they spin out.

Words are just fun.

But, what pains me is when I wish to write for someone and there's just no one to write for. It's not the same when one writes for an imaginary person. The heart is just not there.

Douchey is retarded...

Ahahahahahhahaha...

I'MMMMMMMMM SO BOOOOOOOOOORED!

soooooooooooooooooooooooo
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooored.

And the day is soooooooooooooooooooooooo
greeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...

It's been overcast and grey all day,
drizzling every so often when it feels like it.

It's awful...

Then there was that fog that blanketed the city sometime in the afternoon.
Muh...

*annoyance*

A good many things have flooded into the sekretblog because the ovaries are being annoying and stuff happened that I am not in liberty to discuss. It's about me and not other people so worry not thy pretty little head.

So, Marriage is the word for the week... Again thanks to Lord Soso and Kynakyns (different marriages by the way) and i've decided to add on the engagement rings that I had posted HERE.

Wedding bands are supposed to be simple and considering the 3-stone iBraggiotti ring that I'm fawning over, this Moebius Strip inspired wedding band is just perfect.

(http://www.etsy.com/listing/25283140/mobius-wedding-or-committment-ring-in)

Etsy stores FTW. It'd be perfect in platinum with the spouses name engraved on the inside.

I'm going to Soundwave *boingboingboing*

And a gay guy SAVES THE DAY! At the beach, i mean, and almost dislocated my shoulder but whatever la. hahahaha...

Day at the beach ogling a multitude of good looking men.

YEAAAAAAAY!

I finally watched A Curious Case of Benjamin Button and now I have a pseudo New Orleans accent talking in my head.

BUT
Rene sounds so... :3
(ignoring the fact that he's a baddie in True Blood. Ha.)

Gambit. :3 :3 :3
Have always loved the Cajun accent more.

An email from the Bossman informed me that I had sent out the right date of the wrong month. My reply?

"omg... OHMYGOD*sends addendum email*

thankyou..."

Yes, because I'm special like that.

Oh, and I bought 18 dollars worth of chocolates yesterday. It's 80 grams but well worth it. I love orange ganache in chocolate.

And these grapes suck, the ones I'm currently consuming. Oh, well, it's still fiber.

Also also, I may have a gang to go for Soundwave because if Don K stays true to his word he's going to introduce me to some of his friends who have similar tastes in music to yours truly.

By the way Baked Garlic Fries... nomnomnom...

Sekian,

It's over and now I'm lazy.
I'm re-installing all the Sims 3 things that i have and making sure they all work right.

Oh, did I mention I've received my ticket for Soundwave in March? Hyyeaaaaaasssssss I'm a happy little kitten.

Last installation an then I can play... Bahaahahahah... Long time :|

Most of the time, when I have to work, nonsense happens.

Me (7:32 PM)

WHAT YOU DOING?

Grampooh (7:33 PM)

I WERKING

lol

Me (7:34 PM)

OKAY THAT'S COOL

Grampooh (7:35 PM)

LOL

WHAT YOU DOING?

Me (7:36 PM)

I'M SHOUTING IN MY HEAD

AND DOING WERK TOO

I LIKE SHOUTING IN MY HEAD

MAKES ME THINK IM CRAZY

ALSO I THINK IM QUITE HILARIOUS

Grampooh (7:40 PM)

HAMAGAD UR HILARIOUS

Me (7:40 PM)

WHY THANK YOU

Grampooh (7:40 PM)

LETS JUST SHOUT ALL DAY

Me (7:40 PM)

I THINK THAT'S A BRILLIANT IDEA!

SHOUT SHOUT SHOUT

Grampooh (7:40 PM)

YAY

SHOUT SHOUT SHOUT

Me (7:40 PM)

WHY IS YOUR FONT SIGNIFICANTLY BIGGER THAN MINE?!

Grampooh (7:41 PM)

I HAVE NO IDEA

Me (7:41 PM)

I JUST REALISED

YAY!

Grampooh (7:41 PM)

MAYBE BECAUSE I AM AWESOMER!

YAY!

Me (7:41 PM)

MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE OLDER THAN ME!

Grampooh (7:41 PM)

NO ITS BECAUSE I AM AWESOMER!

Me (7:41 PM)

OMG I DO SOUND CRAZY

I AM CRAZY!

Grampooh (7:41 PM)

DO I AWESOME?

Me (7:41 PM)

WHEEEEEEEE

DO YOU AWES- NO I AM AWESOMEREST

Me (7:42 PM)

I WILL NOW SHOUT WITHOUT PUNCTUATION

Grampooh (7:42 PM)

DO I AWESOME!!!

Me (7:42 PM)

I AM AWESOME

Grampooh (7:42 PM)

I AM AWESOMERESTEST

Me (7:42 PM)

IF I READ THIS AGAIN TOMORROW I WILL WTF

I AM AWESOMERESTESTESTNESSESS

Grampooh (7:43 PM)

I AM WTF-ING NOW

Me (7:43 PM)

I WANT STEAK

Grampooh (7:43 PM)

I AM AWESOMERESTESTESTNESSESSTESSTESSNESSTESSS

Me (7:43 PM)

TESTICULARITY

Grampooh (7:43 PM)

STEAK SOUNDS GREAT

I WOULD WANT ONE TOO

Me (7:44 PM)

YOU HAVE TWO TESTICULARITIES YOU DONT NEED ANOTHER ONE

Grampooh (7:44 PM)

I WANT STEAK TOO

Me (7:44 PM)

I FINISHED A WHOLE BAG OF MNMS

Grampooh (7:44 PM)

NOW U MADE ME WANT STEAK

Me (7:44 PM)

I AM KING

KING OF PERSUASIVITY

Grampooh (7:44 PM)

U HAS DINGDONGS?

Me (7:44 PM)

I NO HAS

I HAS JAYJAY

Grampooh (7:44 PM)

U HAS DINGDONGS

U FREAKY

Me (7:45 PM)

DINGDINGS IS A CANDY YES

Grampooh (7:45 PM)

U KING

Me (7:45 PM)

I KING OF AWESOME

Grampooh (7:45 PM)

U HAS DINGDONGS

Me (7:45 PM)

I KING OF OPPOSITE DAY ALSO

Grampooh (7:45 PM)

AND APPARENTLY OPPOSITE SEX TOO

Me (7:45 PM)

IT WOULD BE GREAT IF I HAS DINGDONG

Me (7:46 PM)

THEN I NO NEED TO HAVE PMS

Grampooh (7:46 PM)

U IS WEIRD

Me (7:46 PM)

I IS

IS NOT SAD

Grampooh (7:46 PM)

IS HAS DINGDONGS IS HAPPY

Grampooh (7:47 PM)

EPIC DINGDONGS OF HAPPINESS

Me (7:47 PM)

YOU REALISE I HAVE TO BLOG THIS WTF

I THINK EPIC DINGDONG WOULD HURT

Grampooh (7:47 PM)

WHAT TA FAK IS I SAYING

Me (7:47 PM)

I DONT KNOW

YOU WEIRD

Grampooh (7:47 PM)

NO YOU WEIRDER

Me (7:47 PM)

YOU WEIRDEST

Grampooh (7:48 PM)

YOU WEIRDEREST

Me (7:48 PM)

YOU WEIRDERESTESTEST

Grampooh (7:48 PM)

TESTICALS

Me (7:49 PM)

TESTICULAR

Grampooh (7:49 PM)

Y U TALK CRAP

Me (7:50 PM)

cos i can

OMG I FORGOT TO SHOUT

___________________________________________

I'm special like that.

I have been having some funky ass dreams which I obviously can't remember anymore. Dream recording machine, cepatlah invent!

Anyway, ad verbum from my twitter:
I feel like I should post a word from the dictionary a day and stick relevant lols with it. But I couldn't be arsed.

What I mean is I should have a word from the dictionary every time I post and i'll have some form of amusing media to follow it just to prove a point. Key words: Amusing Media.. Yes, that means things which have some serious lulz.
Obviously this series will start from A and it will start as soon as I find me a dictionary. No, I don't have a dictionary in my apartment. We have Google for that.

Oh my god! The Moebius Strip Project!

How many things can I make using the moebius principle? No, I'm not gonna do math, I hate math. I like money. I like counting money and counting how much money I can make from my existing money... But I hate math.

But I will make things...

Behh... at least making things like the moebius strip isn't as hard as the black hole principle. Oh, I die. It's a good thing I didn't aspire to become a physicist. I'll fail so hard.

Thinks that pop up into my head at 7PM:
If the milky way has a super massive black hole in the middle of it which sucks in the star systems and planets, albeit slowly, but the universe is said to be expanding continuously until it reaches the point of inertia... Doesn't that make both processes moot?

I just finished re-watching the 1995 make of Pride and Prejudice and Sense and Sensibility... Oh, I do so love period shows. Also, the inside of my head sounds like old English which is hilarious and uncommonly proper. Uncommonly.

I was awestruck at how a lazy Sunday of movie-watching and slacking about was quite the contrary to other denizens of the internet, or thus had they proclaimed. So much trouble brewing in he air, so much hate and disdain. Then tonight, I read on one of my friend's status updates her proclamation.

"There should be no room for hate in this world."

To which I replied and have since decided to continue responding in prose.

Hate
Contempt
Lies
False accusations.

A tool for the tool,
Society and her ill-will.
Harm.

The deceit
A slow and debilitating disease.
A rash form of death.
Of decay.

Poor form.
Poor, poor form.

No sooner I,
I'd rather a knife on my side.

A bludgeon to the head.

Morbid and Concise.

The actual wound.

Post midnight conversational meanderings brought me to thinking about iconic music. The music I grew up with... You know, the ones where if it started playing, a majority of people would chime in.

Queen's Bohemian Rhapsody where people would chime in to that bit in the middle before Brian May's epic guitar solo...
House of Pain's Jump Around where everyone would start jumping... together and i hope the floor doesn't collapes...
Blur's Song 2 where just about anyone would join and "WOO-HOO!"
MC Hammer's Can't Touch This because "Stop, hammer time,"
Sir Mixalot's Baby Got Back because "I like big butts and I cannot lie,"
(dll.)

Yeah, the whole idea that some of the kids I know DON'T know these songs scare me more than my mother and is unacceptable. I feel sorry for them.

Poem time!
This time with a piece I call...

Sensorium

Audio.

Stimulus.

Euphoric sensory fluctuations

Occurring.

It's happening,

It's emotional, it's awe, it's raw.

It takes you away.

Lights,

Sounds,

Harmonies,

Dissonance.

Nuances of beauty and structure,

Floaty, flighty and free.

Light and devoid of trouble.

Contrasting, inspiring,

Explosions that make the heart race,

The heart skips,

The heart loses a beat,

A brain that suddenly releases its grip on reality.

Your eyes perceive,

your ears hear,

your mind wanders into the murky waters of uncertainty.

You make music.

The colours titillate,

The beats entice,

Your foot taps the ground,

Fingers rapping the surface.

Lips that pucker up.

Inhale,

Exhale.

Sound.

Cosmic Vibrations.

_________________________________________

I feel all tingly inside, a sudden burst of joy. Unimaginable what simple music construction can do to a weary soul.

I had a creepy-ass dream though I don't quite remember it. It had something to do with an interdimensional safe house, first floor was for a women's club, the upper floor was for some kind of weird fire-pit covered with a large plastic-like tarp and we had to use 'brimstone' to fire it up.

Guy: Can you make brimstone?
Me: If I'm pissed enough... hahahaha... *didn't realise he was serious*

It's freaky because the pit summons things that wouldn't be there otherwise, Like the Minotaur with a giant axe that lead me through the cavernous flux and into the safe house's portal.

I can't remember the rest now. Pfeh.

My presentation is at 10AM tomorrow. The final render is running now and everything else is done and sitting pretty on my bed. I'll have to wake up early tomorrow to do one more print and get a bagel or something for breakfast and mosey on to uni to start arranging things and hopefully bait someone into helping me pin up.

Man, this post sounds so dead. :|

Good night, world.

How is it possible that the 21st century can still have computer illiterate under 20 year olds?

SERIOUSLY!
Nobody is that dense!
It's like kuih lapis...
Nay, IT'S LIKE A BLACK HOLE.

Oh. Dear. God. WHY AM I AWAKE?

Oh, right, Quang needs CAD tutoring.

I'M A FUCKING SAINT OF A FRIEND!

Sorry for the noisy chatters fellow housemates. :(

Today's post is about fish. Yes, fish.

I've again come across Which Fish Are Okay To Eat? o'er the internet and, true to form, now I feel bad. Not the good kind of bad where you feel cool like the Fonz but bad as in karmatically (I made that word up) you might dissolve into a puddle of blubbering, crying mass on the floor with nobody to tell you it's okay and the fish had it coming. Overdramatic? Not really.

I'm writing down the names of fishes only on the 'Yes' column and attaching photos of them because 1. It's easier for me to commit to memory if I can actually SEE the types of fish and 2. It'll be good to stick to the yesses only.

Coho Salmon

Arctic Char

Barramundi

Cobia

Striped Bass

joke, joke!

Rainbow Trout

Catfish
(I'm thinking all catfish are edible?)

Joking again, there's too many kinds of catfishes to narrow down on just one picture.

Tilapia

Sardines

Dab

Flounder

Red Mullet

Black Bream

Herring from Norway

Mackerel

Gurnard

and it looks like a small aircraft :|

Seabass fished with line and stillnet

Albacore Tuna

Big Eye Tuna

Anchovy

Blackcod/Sablefish

Halibut

Crimson Snapper

Cod

White Seabass

All I can say right now is this fishes are really ugly creatures. And tasty.

Okay, I didn't go to the PPP (Preliminary Pisser's Presentation) because I am unprepared. Also, I woke up late. Whoop-dee-doodly-doo.

Finish up goddamn CAD so I can move on to doing the presentation pieces and get everything else done. Hish. Harder than I though.

Oh look! An article on table manners! I shall sleep early tonight.

Who knew beets, garlic, alfalfa, chili flakes, olive oil and pasta would taste so good! I practically inhaled a bowl full of it!

I cannot wait until Studio two is over. It's driving me mad.

Preliminary (pisser's) presentation tomorrow, chances are my brain will just go blweaaahhh and pretty much mean I'd rosakkan the whole thing. I'd much rather stay at home but my ego wont let me. Also, I'm grossly unprepared.

I got sucked into watching cartoons for a better half of my morning. No, it's not good.

Also, has anyone realised how Jesse Eisenberg...

Looks uncannily like the younger version of Alan Davies?

Who looks quite like a less disheveled version of Marco Pierre White?

I guess I have too much time on my hands. That or the particular Y (or X) chromosome transcends any particular order. The only difference is that Marco is a douche and not at all funny.

OMG NO MORE HISTORY THEORY 2!

What's left is Studio and Comm. I start work TOMORROW!

I have officially run out of steam for History Theory 2. Which is great because I only have bits and bobs left to do and off to the printer in the early morning tomorrow before heading to breakfast at that little place in front of Duck Duck Goose. They have some lovely french toast there with poached fruit and ricotta cream.

For the presentation on Tuesday, I must choose my words ever so carefully. Ever. So. Carefully. All my findings and work must not be undermined by the ludicrous act of random tangents by the tutors just because I just so happened to mention something.

FOR CHRISSAKES MY WORK HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE FUCKING BEANBAGS/FUTONS! WOULD YOU LEAVE IT THE FUCK ALONE?

ESSAY, Y U NO WRITE YOURSELF?!

#truestory.

Hi, I'm staring in the face of History Theory 2 thinking up ways to write a response to stuff I don't really care for because I've already written responses for stuff I do care for. I haven't started on my 3k word essay on Surrealism and my Pavilion is being neglected. Truly the start of a lovely weekend.

Things I've got left to do:
The Arts and Crafts Movement
Cubism
De Stijl Write up

Surrealism Essay

Pavilion placement (Sections, Elevations and Plans)
Sketches of the Pavilion
Photos
Model?
Visual hierarchy for the presentation

Organisational Chart for Strandbeest
(which can be explained by Theo Jansen himself on TEDtalks!)


Wheee!

Have less and give more, progress quick but move slowly, be happy.

Symphonic Metal is the best when you need to work. So beautiful and terrifying.

Soundwave festival is upon us again. One year FLEWWWW by.

It's quiet time now as I sit and tap on the keyboard, I also make lists in my head so that I can write them down for later.
I feel so disorganised at the moment but it's okay, the weekend is coming and that's usually when I get a lot of work done. Funny isn't it? I guess, in a way it's because I have no interruptions and my time is my own to dictate.

I've got to consider how my time is spaced out for the next two weeks. I've got assignments that involve a lot of hands-on making and research and it's a pain.

Aside from that it's interesting how some persons react to a certain situation. The most amusing ones run around like a headless chicken in their head and retort with passive aggression. I find it hilarious.

Right, I need to wake up at a god forsaken hour in the morning and do laundry before prepping the kitchen area for work. A lot of work. I intend to finish a bulk of HT2 and Studio 2 sketching before clearing up anything else that doesn't involve the big computer.

Yes, I do judge people by how much they relieve themselves off their alleged stress. I can't help it. Inebriated people often act foolishly, without concern and self respect.

It's Wednesday and I'm spacing out while thinking of the human contraband. How awful. I think next year I might buy a Samsung Galaxy Tab 10.1 (or whatever comes out that's not an iPhail) because it's time for me to get one. I had cracked the corner screen of my laptop and it looks like spiders had built a home there. Tiny Shelobs come to devour my emails, okay, maybe not. I can still use it though so it's cool.

I am enjoying my two Twelve Foot Ninja LP's and should really start work. Really, really.
Okay, I start reading.

Wait, someone just triggered the emergency alarm and it's telling all of us to 'Evacuate as directed'... I didn't get any directions pun.

Me crawling in the dark for a while, feeling around for a light. Lo, I find. I am joyous again.

In other words, P didn't screw me over today. I think she's just glad I presented something well thought out.
Ha!

It's been long since the last bout of poeticity...

In Adequacy

Sarcophagus of silence,

Alone,

Pondering,

Sit staring into darkness the quiet weeps insignificant,

reverberations of adequacy,

Inadequacy,

Thoughts of imperfections,

Minuscule but triumphant.

A hole,

Deep,

Meaningless an abyss of disrepair,

Of self reflection.

Reflection?

Refraction of soul

Askew,

Deliberate,

Callous,

Distant.

Sharp intangible knives,

Stabbing a pain,

The fourth vertebrae.

Collapse,

The ego collapses,

No longer immune.

The sticks,

The stones.

They consume the corpse,

Falls into disregard,

Ignored.

Broken.

But never forever so she awakens.

____________________________

I'm rather pissed at myself for an idiot week. This feeling is awful. Someone cauterise it so that the bleeding stops and I can be genuinely happy.

I'm posting lots of crazy on my twitter right now, sounds like I have the crazies.

Questions off Na's blog from HERE I will answer.

1. Five ways to win my heart:
  - Make me laugh
  - Nerd/Geek out with as much fervour as I do
  - Be nice to the waiter.
  - RESPECT MY FAMILY as I respect yours, don't be a douche.
  - Read me like a book

2. Something I feel strongly about:
  - A sense of self. Who you are is not defined by your religious faith, your political views, or your skin colour. Who you are is defined by your thoughts, passion for the things you do, your interests, the people you surround yourself with and most importantly, your self respect.

3. A book I love:
  - Will always be my first love, when I decided that this was the genre that would forever captivate me. Tom Holt's Odds and Gods. When you can do a piss-take and get people to laugh.

4. Bullet my whole day?
  - If I had to bullet my whole day? >> Be occupado.

5. Things I want to say to my ex:
  - Thank you. You have no idea how much whatever you did meant to me.

6. Views on mainstream music.
  - I hate it. yes, HATE.

7. Five pet peeves:
  - Tardiness
  - overly emotional people
  - parents who cannot control their children
  - jealous types
  - Not winning

8. What I ate today:
  - A burger from Grill'd. I miss the nice 8 ringgit burger at Taman Permata.

9. How important I think education is:
  - Finish college. You need college if only for the people you meet and the friends you make because they're the ones who secure your future. Not a piece of paper that says how good you were in your exams. Learn to accomodate.

10. 10 songs playing on shuffle:
  - Soundgarden's Holy Water
  - Soundgarden's Down On The Upside
  - Arctic Monkeys' Secret Doors
  - Greenday's Minority
  - Epica's version of Stabat Mater Dolorosa (From Stabat Mater-Giovanni Battista Pergolesi)
  - Amy Macdonald's This Is The Life
  - Slipknot's Tattered and Torn
  - Skindred's Tears
  - Gloria Gaynor's I Will Survive
  - Chevelle's Peer

11. My family:
  - is worthy of their own sitcom.
    My father (Ayah Awesome), my hero, so inappropriate, foot-in-mouth-disease, speaks his mind, loving, cracks super lame dad-jokes/puns.
   My mother (Enda Awesome), our balance, she frets for us when we don't for ourselves, she then moves on to fret for everyone else just because she can, itchy-butt cannot keep still, gave birth to me so hello? Imagine if that never happened?
  My siblings, so different like a bunch of highschool stereotypes. I can't imagine life without them. It would be pretty quiet and uneventful.

12. Five guys I find attractive
  - By simple physical features and not including personality types... my studio lect with chinhair, Luca with chinhair, Christian Bale with chinhair, Jason Momoa with chinhair, Gerard Butler because he's a man's man. I'm starting to see a common theme here... Chinhair. omigosh.

13. My opinion on my body and how comfy I am with it:
  - I love my body but a few days a month it goes apeshit and I can't do anything about it. :(

14. What I wore today:
  - Jeggings (I can't belive I used that word), black long sleeved shirt and a Ripcurl hoodie, flipflops.

15. My zodiac and if it fits my personality:
  - Aries Fire Rabbit, Hell to the yes.

16. Something I always think 'What if...' about:
  - What if i didn't have SMA 3? how different would I be?

17. Something that I'm proud of:
  - At the moment, Tape Melbourne. In general, I live in another country.

18. A problem that I've had:
  - I was a problem child. You figure that out yourself.

19. Five items I lust after:
  - Ibanez Iceman
  - Better computer
  - Canary Yellow Cobra Mustang Convertible 2003 with Bose soundsystem and black leather interior.
  - Amazing soundsystem
  - My own apartment

20. My fears:
  - Heights but I'll conquer that soon.
  - Losing my family

21. How I hope my future will be like:
  - Just like I imagine it would be because I'll make it happen.

22. My academics:
  - Great enough to get me through to the next checkpoint.

23.Something that I miss:
  - MY CAT :(

24. Five words or phrases that make me laugh:
  - Ich bin Berliner (Which means I am a donut haha)
  - NOBODY EXPECTS THE SPANISH INQUISITION!
  - Theo Van DOUCHEBAG
  - Meow
  - What? Huh? What? What?...

25. Something I'm currently worrying about
  - Uni work. I feel horrid about it and I feel like I need a slap in the face. Meh.

26. Things I like and dislike about myself:
  Like - I'm awesome
  Dislike - I procrastinate

27. A quote I try to live by:
  - "Anything you can do I can do better..." Annie Get your Gun.

28. Somewhere I'd like to move to or visit:
  - EVERYWHERE

29. Five weird things that I like:
  - Manly Chinhair on my men and I don't care that it scrapes my face.
  - Sour things
  - Heavy Metal
  - Angry Stand-up Comedy
  - Old Musicals

30. One thing I'm excited for:
  - I'm always looking forward and am excited for the life I am working towards.

Sleep? Apa tu? Tomorrow, I'm guessing what's gonna happen is I'm gonna come home after presenting whatever nonsense I have and sleep until I have to go back to class in the afternoon. Assuming I can go back at all.

I'm prepared for P's critique because my 5 pieces tak siap. Sial.

Add on:
P tak naik gila. Surprise. Nailed it.

I have so many things to do before 10AM tomorrow...
*epicsadface*

I cook like a bawse, yo.
Made mee kari today but no seeham. And it never tastes as good as the one you buy at the roadside from the old auntie and uncle tag-team. So how do you make it so god without the MSG? I have no idea but damn it all.

Final TM tribute:

Yes. I'm happy to not be dead tired cos it's almost the end of sem. OMG SO CEPAT! That is correct.
I'm up to my chin with work and I don't know where to start. Nor do I want to start. Siap, mati nanti.

Sad that lelaki italy yang comel telah diambil. :(

The cake I made is actually really good... :O
Anyway, I had this dream where I picked up my report sheet and saw the marks after I apparently kicked ass in the presentation but failed. I raged... then I woke up with a wtf and thought about the day I got loads of random free shit. hahahahaha... I am now happy again. Happy and eating cake.

Have a lovely day denizens of the internet!

So. Much. Work.

SOMUCHWORK! :(

There's something exhilarating when organising a hugely successful exhibit, in other words, I TapeMelbourne'd like a Bawse. Ahaahahah...

Now I have to Bawse my uni work in time for tomorrow. Which I have just found out that my presentation is at  10AM which means I have to berOfficeWorks at 7AM. Damnit, damnit, damnit.

Me: Hey Viv, tell Francesco I said Luca is cute.
Viv: Who is cute?
Me: Luca.
Viv: Luca!
Francesco far away screaming: HOW COME EVERYONE SAYS LUCA IS CUTE HOW COME FRANCESCO NOT CUTE ALWAYS LUCA... *merapu lebih*
Viv: He's angry now...
Me: WTF HAHAAHAHAHAHHAA...

On another note,
Tape Melbourne is awesome and I have lost my voice. Yeay.

Me to T & J during Tape Melbourne:
Right, if you guys are waiting for something to do, I need you to start clearing up the place and throw stuff away and then I need you to move that scaff so that A can finish up the arm...
*T and J still listening after I stop talking for 3 seconds*
Uhh... well, chop-chop!


hahahah...

I haven't baked the cake and I got into a fight with gravity and got punched in the face by her very, very, very violent friend, the floor, all because I tried to climb onto the pavement with my scooter and misjudged the height. Damn gravity and her friends... But yay for drinks!

Dirty Black Russians beat White Russians and I still don't like beer. Strawberry-apple cider on the other hand is not bad.

Drink tally: 2 whites, 1 beer, 3 dirty black russians.

The week of craziness is over. Over.




Amazing, aren't they?

And this was my few weeks long amazingness: Tape Melbourne and the Tape Melbourners (without Tracy, David and Josh)