natural born cynic

Yep, that's me.

I pop up my own bubble before it envalopes my senses.
Expect nothing and I'll never be disappointed.

Yes, it's absofuckinlutely godawful splendid.

I hate it when maternal unit buys me clothes. Dah brapa kali dah and when I make a face it's cos i'm not grateful. I am, it's just that we'll never connect on the fabric level.

Jeez, woman have you not realised I'm not trying to reach out to my inner beauty queen because I killed her with a bloody axe?
Haven't you realised I can't be bothered with the male species?
Haven't you realised I have no want and do not need to spawn?

And that's just putting it lightly.

bleeeeeeed!!!

So apparently reading long boring posts makes your eyes bleed. I cuncur. Sorry for the lack of interesting stuff. I really had nothing better to post.
Really!
Maaf, hey?

http://freerice.com/index.php
Be nice and click on the link to play a wordgame which will send some rice to help END world hunger.

I played it. and couldnt get past Vocab level 33. I need to start using bigger words.
o_O;;

*runs off for a shower*
*runs back*

I are hungry. It's lunch. What to eat?

Jerome beat me to Minesweeper.
I beat him in Tictactoe.
7-hand poker TBA.
I will beat his ass with a stick. MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...

In the News!
Sex toys advertisment found at the back of football timetables. Well, I nevah!
It's about time! Hahaha... but the fact that little kids stare at vibrating c*ck rings is abit disturbing to say the least.

Previously in the News!
http://www.theage.com.au/news/business/while-malaysia-fiddles-its-opportunities-are-running-dry/2006/11/14/1163266550487.html?page=2
I'm not the only one who hinks my country is run by tosspots.

And now I ask you,
my dear readers, is gender equality really viable?
Here's some online articles I've found, though some may not be authoritative in manner.

http://www.sciam.com/article.cfm?articleID=00018E9D-879D-1D06-8E49809EC588EEDF
http://www.mattmccormick.ca/2007/09/19/gender-equality-is-bogus/
http://www.gendertalk.com/?q=node/224
http://www.economist.com/science/displaystory.cfm?story_id=7245949 (this one is for premium readers only dammit!)
http://muslimmuckraker.blogspot.com/2007/03/canadian-conversation-muslims-gender.html
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Equalism (definitely not authoritative)
http://www.acdi-cida.gc.ca/equality

LET ME JUST REMIND YOU BEFORE YOU ALL THROW A HISSY FIT...
that we're not looking at this in a commercial point of view. We're looking at this is a scientific and social point of view. NO, monetary matters will NOT be discussed. NO, work ethics will NOT be discussed and NO, there will be NO mention of statistics showing x% of men holding top jobs as opposed to -x% of women holding it in said country.

a moment to piss an moan

No, not again!

I shall try to make this experience a little more bearable by lacing it with a whole lot of swearing, sarcasm and random images.
All to appease my darling reader(s)...
>.<;;

So yesterday I thought it was running a Tuesday when today I realised it is, and undoubtedly after checking the newspaper/calendar on lappy/calendar on phone, Friday which only serves one purpose: To tell me that I have successfully and for the nth time lost some days. How? Simple. I slept through it.
No, I didn't.
NaziEnda would have killed me then and there.
And *Click!* I realised I went out with Junes and Danny on Wednesday. Yes, I have replaced my mother's name again. This time from Martyr to NaziEnda. It works.
Shatap.

I had a whole packet of Famous Amos all to myself. I will NEVER share it with anyone. Not even if they begged. On knees. Bleeding. Fuggedabouddit. God damn Mr. Wally Amos! You are a whiz with the cookies! *beams*



Yes, your name will be synonymous with good cookie munching everywhere.

Now then, the day has been absolutely fuck all when it comes down to a T. Shar called for Danny's numero and may be going out later. It's all fine and dandy when the pisser's living in the same area but its pishtosh when you live on the other side of the buggery city!
What a tosser!
And another thing: They'll be out all night til 6am. Curses... CURSESSSSSS!!! And then tomorrow at 12 am Shar again leaves for Switzerland.
But he'll be back in December.
HAH!

Rewind back a day or so when I found out the SO is in a deep state of shit. Migraines making his life a living hell hole and I can't do anything about it. So I say it again. FUCK-ALL! ABSOLUTE FUCK-ALL!
Could you just make it a little harder... Could you? Please? Thank you so much. What MORE can I ask for?

Okay enough of that so here's what I need. A rehash of my wishlist if you please...


A new camera
which has been voted by the gents to be either a Sony, a Fujitsu or a Canon IXUS.


Some new undergarments
Of course would be far cheaper and of superior comfort if bought in the YooKeh but that's a non issue cos we LIKE undergarbs don't we?


A martini night with the girls
Only attainable after Min's exams. Blasted Things!


New cocktail dress for the martini night
We shall needs to go for the shopping thing yes?

Okay thats enough for today...
-Sha

left behind

I wrote a post on LiveJournal because it's too deep for Blackrope. I can't handle people reading too much into it.

Item 1:
I cannot find mom's camera so Raya photos will be up when I find it.

Item 2:
Needs to go bra shopping

Item 3:
Apparently there's a really good Italian place in Pudu where it's authenticity surpasses the likes of Pizza Uno. Girls, are you up for it?

Item 4:
I start at Wong, Beh & Toh on Thursday. I await their email.

Item 5:
Sakit perut.

End transmission.

readership

I wonder if I even have a decent amount of readers.
If I do, I wonder if they'd ever stop silent stalking and shout me something on the message boards.
I guess not.

On to the topic of undergarments.
I want to shop for some.
So what did I do?
I went online and Googled 'bras'.
Guess what I found?
Lots of articles relating to bra structure and the science behind it...
Well, Bra technology then.
Ha-ha.

To each his, or her, own:
I love Thee.

tired and depraved

Perhaps the inside of my head looks like this
*points down*



Which is a non issue I wish to address to the public at large.
Perhaps a creation of a more discreet blog is in the works for something less public and more rant-like for someone with such a mind as to promote a disorganised self image to the rest of the world.

Which really literally means I wan't to blow some people/places up.
Doesn't say much about my sanity either.

It's been on like this for several weeks now. Perhaps an adverse effect of being in an enclosed room with cigarette smoke for a month or just PMS in a sort of 'post' instead of the usual 'pre' sense.

I sit here in stupor as to how I had just stopped making sense even to myself. I half think it's got something to do with the disease schitzophrenia which is just medical jargon for saying a split or multiple personality disorder quickly effecting half of the worlds' population but we don't notice it since we practice it on a daily basis.

An example?
Aishah at work beats Aishah at home
or Aishah's behaviour with her parents contrasting with Aishah's behaviour with her friends.

I think that would just make it a total of already 4 different personalities.
*sigh*

I would very much love to speak with someone who wouldn't pass judgement on my current state of affairs but nobody seems to be nice enough to bear with me relinquishing the burden of my heart and soul. It does seem like a daunting task to the average person if you think about it that way but really, it isn't!

A malady of discontent if it were put in such a short and eloquent way. In a fit of unprecedence it seems as if I had just jumped into a bonfire and burned away with such passion like only Cirano may whisper of.

Passion. Such a word brings a scowl to my face. Such a crude and demeaning suggestion in this age. There is no more passion. There is no more acceptance. Merely a tolerance and a want to keep up with society, to stay away from its distaste, its imposed guilt.

To end it all? There is no end.

bush did it again

So some good reading on President Bush on he Children's Health Bill that he had vetoed HERE!

It's quite horrendous really. Is he gonna be off term soon? I'm sick of his kera face. Menjijikkan.

Exerpt that got me pointing and laughing:

While the outcome was not in doubt, tempers flared when Rep. Pete Stark, D-Calif., brought the Iraq war into the debate.

"You don't have money to fund the war or children," he told Republicans. "But you're going to spend it to blow up innocent people if we can get enough kids to grow old enough for you to send to Iraq to get their heads blown off for the president's amusement."

Sidenote:
Anyone knows a good place to buy boxing equipment?
I need exercise.

i are sick

My body just went abit persona non grata on me...
My head hurts,
I have cirit birit,
slight fever perhaps,
teary eyes,
the list, however, is exhaustive and I shall be as right as rain by monday.
Or Tomorrow.

Side note:
I don't know if I can handle exclusivity.
I'd like to...
I'd love to
But I don't know anymore.
Interest clashing on instinctual habit and insane guilt if persued?
*sigh*

It's killing me I think.

thing in the mirror

That's who I see.
A monster.
Selfish, proud.
I don't like what She turned into since June.
It's not me.

Her cold eyes are not mine.
I don't know where She same from.
It's very unlike Goji.

Here's another facet of me.
*sigh*

Funny,
I'm listening to Pretty Noose by Soundgarden.
How ironic.

My heart feels smashed.

post raya blues

*strums*
It's the post raya blueeeeees...

So yea,
This raya needs more oomph.
T'was rather sad.

*strums again*
Slim, slim pickins...
Unlike Rayas dahuluuuuuu...

Yeppo.
Everyone this year kedekut one kind.
But it was nice to see all the folks that you see once a year every year.
Everyones looking older, gone fatter, gone taller, got babies, got a job et al...

And the mangkuks played monopoly in my room.
Very good.

esok raya

So the poem didn't work as well as I expected
(or not had expected but whatever)
Here's another 'Rasa Sayang' I gave to everyone in the form of an sms.

Rasa sayang hey,
Rasa sayang, sayang hey,
Hey, lihat you guys jauh rasa sayang, sayang wey.
Esok pagi is finally raya,
Janganlah makan tak ingat dunia,
I know I haven't been so good this year,
If you forgive me I won’t merana.

hahahahah...
suka tak?

Have a happy Eid Mubarak everyone.
I love you all.
Come to my house 3rd day after 3pm.
Yay!
MAKANAN!!!

Let’s come to my house partially fed this time. Last year tak cukup makanan. You’re all lucky we don’t resort to buying a truckload of KFC.
You people eat too much.
Hahahahaha…

Eh, esok Raya!
PRIMP!!! PRIIIIIIMP!!!!!

Tangent to Nurin’s case:
They found a tape of the people who dumped Nurin’s body.
The bastards!
Haven’t they got anything better to do than going around committing heinous crimes? All of them should be punished in the worst way.
I say we bring back the iron maiden!

hakelaaaa...

Telah terlajak put the raya post a few days to early since I have plenty more ranting to do about our dear old government.
THATS RIGHT YOU PISSFARTS! YOU ARE OLD!

Regarding the sending of one of our goons to space.
Item 1:
It's a goon.

Item 2:
Hello. space aje la.
What's he gonna do?
Brag about floating around aimlessly?
Heck, I can do that!

Item 3:
30 MILLION of taxpayers moneys have been spent on this asinine mission when they know there are reads to be fixed, schools to be built, hospitals to fund, charities to be charitable to and electricity and water to be piped to the rural areas.
TIGA PULUH BLOODY MILLION RINGGIT!
DO YOU KNOW WHAT WE CAN DO WITH THAT KIND OF MONEY?
The whole idea of flinging a guy into space on a giant firecracker hardly does any justice.
Hello, can someone say novelty item to keep up with the Joneses?

It's not that I'm not happy for Malaysia for having the first man in space et al but the whole concept of putting beauty before substance is beyond me. I do believe someone in the government, make that some FEW, haven't gotten their priorities right.

Malaysia: Truly Asia
Can someone make Malaysians happy first before claiming to be the best at everything?

*sings*
Rasa sayang, hey!
Rasa sayang, sayang, hey!
Hey, lihat Nona jauh rasa sayang sayang hey!

Malaysia is getting real cracked up
I don't know why we all persevere
Going to space isn't so syok lah
I'm at home tengah merana.

Rasa sayang, hey!
Rasa sayang, sayang, hey!
Hey, lihat Nona jauh rasa sayang sayang hey!

My family is quite liberal
Sitting at home donno what to do
The government kepala terpesong
I sigh and say we're in deep doo-doo.

Rasa sayang, hey!
Rasa sayang, sayang, hey!
Hey, lihat Nona jauh rasa sayang sayang hey!

Everyone is running far away
Except for me I decide to stay
Because the faith I have for my country
Isn't so koyak already.

Rasa sayang, hey!
Rasa sayang, sayang, hey!
Hey, lihat Nona jauh rasa sayang sayang hey!

I guess I have to end this song
'Cos laugh too much at the newspaper
Indonesian and Malaysian fellers
Are fighting overthisongforno apparent reason.

Rasa sayang, hey!
Rasa sayang, sayang, hey!
Hey, lihat Nona jauh rasa sayang sayang hey!

Syok tak lagu baru?
Syoooooooooook... now lets go fight with some other country about another folk song.
Cubatry enjit-enjit semut pulak.

Edit:
Yi Liang said its 95 Million...
lagi teruk.
Someone clarify before i bash head on table!!

open house

Camille comel... hahahaha

So my open house is on the 3rd day of Raya.
Monday.
After 3.
If you get your ass to my house before that...
YOU. HELP. COOK.
Or help generally around the house.
Okay?
Kita bersama sama mengkemaskinikan rumah di depan tasik yang preeetie tu.

So yes.
Carpool because it lessens congestion.
As does it lessen pollution
but with you people pun.
Intense noise pollution.
I am not exempt from that statement.

Time for the '08 Raya Poem!

Maaf Zahir and Batin,
To everyone who knows,
To everyone who've hung out with,
Even though it blows.

I beg for your forgiveness,
'Cos I said something wrong
I'm pretty sure I did,
'Cos I sometimes see you frown.

My head's a bit pizzazzy
Just like the summers' breeze
So I have to say I'm sorry
for being such a skeeze.

The peom may go on longer,
And already I make shit up,
Oh, yea and one more thing,
Would you excuse my mouth's blasphemous harp?

Selamat Hari Raya Eid Fitri Everyone!
I love you all!!!

news schmews

I'm reading the Star Newspaper and aside from the usual killing, maiming and raping of several individuals, the Althantuya case, Dr. M post surgery and the girl with the new heart, what comes to me as no surprise is how racist my kind actually is amidst all this 'Malaysia: Truly Asia' rubbish.

Re: Page M3 or The Star on Tuesday, October 9th (No Longer Serving Their Original Purpose)

If I said it once I'll say it again. Unless you actually went to an international school or grew up in a different country (mostly) Malaysians are racist (especially bumis). Sure there's a great deal of happy, happy eating going on and that people are enjoying each others company. Wrong. In reality, we (but I use 'we' very loosely) discriminate members of different races on a daily basis most of the time barely tolerating each other.

Why do I say this? Ah bum, can you not see your own twisted reality? I really don't get you people. Malaysia is hardly a utopia of anything! It's more like a plethora of bad things rolled into one tiny package overexacerbated by our horrible administration. It's full of rubbish. So the place, a low cost flat, in mention is somewhere is Subang where it's its intended occupants (people who don't have enough money but have 10 children anyway and I didn't say who) hardly make up half of its population. It's full of foreigners. I can't be half assed about it. They're people. They need a place to live. How much do you want to bet most would be students and construction workers? If you said yes then you are spot on. The polls show that it consists of mainly Indonesians, Bangladeshis and Africans.

Who ratted them out?
Malays la.
Do you think the chinese or Indians would care?
Plus It's low cost. Think about it for a few seconds.

First let me plaster a disclaimer over this rant before some holier than thou imbecile decides to shove his hand in his ass and pull out some crappy words of advise like say
"you are [explative] racist mother[explative], get a life cos we don't need you people here criticising our way of life!"
Oh, wait... that's a tad too articulate, lemme rephrase.
"U don wan 2 liv here don la. We oso cannot care if U die. Die la!"
and then someone shouts from the back and calls me a racist pig. To these people. Go analyse your bumhole, I don't care.

So yes, these foreigners who inhabit the flats don't do much. In fact, they emulate popular Malaysian culture: The budaya lepak and you people complain? Look at your youth, the ones who ride motorbikes at the wee hours of the morning disturbing our sleep, the ones who openly admit to not knowing what a book is much less have read a classic, the ones who lalang out on the streets cat-calling each other, the ones who pretend to hold a certain kind of power in beating up the poor and defenceless. I would rather you rat on your own kids before you rat on the others. When in Rome, do like the Romans and thats exactly the credo that the foreigners adopt to fit in so stop your complaining and come back when you actually become enlightened please?

Oh one more thing. Why would anyone in the right mind let kids under 10 go out at night ALONE without any adult supervision?! Now they're telling everyone to mind the children. Can you lock your kids up in the backseat as well. I don't think it would be anyones fault but your own if they stick their head out the window and it rolls away or the smash the windscreen with their bodies after you hit the emergency breaks. It's bleeding common sense.

If you read through this, Props for you.
-Sha

well that was fun

Buka puasa was a success!
Thanks guys for being there.
Huzzy, thanks for helping clean up. =D

Almost all the food was wiped out except the prawn... which is quite strange.
I will have it for dinner with the baguette. so nice.

hahahahahah...

I'm feeling so lacking in the adored department.
I want him back home, here with me.
I miss him...
And I want hugs.
Amagad so hemo...

Thanks to all those who made it, and happy birthday to the adik.

-sha-

polls schmolls

Explain the reprecussions of having nuclear technology in Iran and why the bush administration is so against it.
	No, I think I'll have pie.
	TO BE, OR NOT TO BE?
	Watermelon
	oi! i hate peas! gettemoffmyfood!
	Que?
	SELL!!! BUYBUYBUY! SELL! WTF?!
Free polls from Pollhost.com

New poll up on the lips tab scroll down.
Have fun, I know I did. hahahaha...

Tapas Saturday revised

I went to Wong, Beh & Toh today for an interview,
It's a lawfirm in Selangor Dredging.
Awesome people the partners.
*grins*

I got the attachment and start in November.

Now on to celebrate the occation with a spot of tapas at mine house. (revised edition)

Date:
6th October 2007, Saturday

Venue:
Chateu de Ampang Hilir... okay no. my house.

Time:
6 30pm OR 1pm for food testing

Menu:
Drinks:
Lemonade
Water
Non-alcoholic Sangria

Tapas:
Patatas Bravas
Garlic Potatoes
Garlic Chicken
Stuffed Mushroom Caps
Roasted Eggplant and Onions in Spicy Tomato Sauce
Calamari A'la Romana
Prawn In Spicy Sauce
Grilled Bell Peppers in Olive Oil

Mains:
Spaghetti Pomodoro

Desserts:
Fruit Salad with Cream

Guest List:
Shrav
Usaid
Puts
Huzzy
Mo
Dan
Junee
Sid
Hakim
May Lee
Min Chiee
Tati
Bear
(plus 5 of Naf's friends)

Furthermore,
Naf's birthday on the 7th... JANGAN LUPA!

That is all. Enjoy your week everyone.