It's the last day of 2011. It's bright and sunny outside, the cars are zooming past because traffic isn't horrendous yet and many people I know won't be around to celebrate it with me. Everyone's got their own thing going on this year.

I have a party to go to later tonight but right now I really couldn't be bothered.

Things to be thankful about in 2011:
- Family
- Friends
- New acquaintances
- Tape Melbourne
- Finishing year one of ID in RMIT (three more to go!)
- First Raya in the apartment
- Comfort in a new city
- Being loved by the ones who matter
- Events that herald new traditions

Summation of 2011 in 3 words:
- Change, Reaction, Success

2011, Wish it didn't happen:
- Put on weight from not exercising

Looking forward to 2012:
- *ehem*
- Strandbeest!
- Having the apartment to myself for a solid month
- The Awesome Forum**
- Year 2

Okay, it's set. I'll be ushering the new year by grounding myself, let the good vibes flowwwww...

** The Awesome Forum:
A communion of peoples for my birthday, pot-luck, music, games, drinks and amazing people mingling amazingly.

2012 is upon us and I have resolutions.

1. To be more direct with my feelings.

2. To stop (Actually do less of it, not cease completely) protecting people from their own vices, from their flaws, from other people's judgements towards them.
I have to stop making excuses for other people's bad behaviour when the topic turns up in another conversation. I am not their mothers. I am their friend. Everyone has flaws.

BUT.

What I dont like is when my friends tokkok about my other friends like they know each other when I've only let them be around each other a few times. If you want to tokkok, tok la... as long as there's truth in your words and not just your inaccurate, condescending and highly subjective point of view, please, could you just STFU. I will tell you honestly that ALL the people around me who are around me by their own accord are lovely and have a heart of gold and you have to remember that they too have flaws because they're human. So when these alleged flaws are impressed upon I WILL protect them for they have been unduly judged by those not of their peers.

3. Get rid of redundant people in my circle.

Honestly, this world is quick moving and result oriented. I'm not going to lie and say that I'm a peace loving hippy living here on planet earth to just trip and do nothing but exist in my own state of nothingness. No. I have an amazing future to work forward to with the people I know who can work WITH me. An empire will be built with an amazing group of people I hold dear. No, not all of them will be high flyers but they are an important member or society and will be the movers and shakers of the future.

Momo called me out on my classist/strata-ist nature but I say that it's not the social class/strata that I hate, it's the fact that they they have that particular class mentality. Complacency and this idea that things will be the status quo forever, the inability to look past tomorrow, or plan for something, or live for something, or to even realise that material posessions do not make a man or woman. It makes you dispensable, unimportant and insignificant because you become a product for the mass market, the capitalist society that we live in. Their gods are not supreme beings. Their gods are inanimate THINGS! I find it disgusting. They ARE the Soylent Green!

4. Work smarter, play wiser and be thankful for everything.
Life is not just about work. Life is about striving for better things while enjoying also being alive. Life is also about being thankful for the things you have that you needed because the things you want you can get later.

5. Plan. Plan. Plan.
If you fail to plan. you plan to fail..

In my room, on the bed with a laptop on my lap. Queens of the Stone Age is playing on my kick-ass stereo system and I'm eating leftover Blackout Cake. Delicious, delicious Blackout Cake. My mind is sedated, the day has been spent doing nothing in particular -- my favourite past time.


It's the day after a new RSGC Clan tradition: XMOOSE. Every 23rd now we celebrate with those we love. Take pictures and be merry. Next year it'll be held at another house. Maybe at Dee's so that we can have some vino and other happydrinkies. What I'd like to take to XMOOSE next year would be a significant other.

I've realised that I've gone back to hanging out with the people I hung out with as a child. They're comfortingly familiar, have no hang-ups and are pretty much on the same wavelength. Another thing I've realised is that it may possibly be an end of an era for the TTDI Clan. Grass of Patch will no longer be something to look forward to for New Year's Eve. Sure, we'll meet up and hang around once in a while but it's not something common anymore. Not that I won't want it to be but with most of them working, it's hard to find the time to stay up until ridiculous hours. Weekends are the only option and with my wide circle, care is taken to meet up and hang out with a majority of them. I'm not a social butterfly, I just like keeping in contact with people.

Happy Christmas to everyone, celebrating it or not, I wish you a Joyous family gathering and new year.

Sometimes in life you allow yourself to open your eyes and realise who around you is good for you and who around you isn't. Then it's just a matter of knowing, then, what to do with that information. Whether or not you wish to continue letting those around you be exposed to the horrid ones, be a hero and break it off or quietly suffer alone knowing that these individuals would eventually destroy you.

I am one of the few people whom, on occasion, choose to break ties as soon as possible because I value my sanity and health in the long-run. This has also given me an uncanny ability to judge whether a person is genuinely nice or not, barring other character flaws. I see the hearts of people. I see their humanity and I'd like to say that those I've stuck with for so many years are the most wonderful people I have had the honour to get to know.

Judge said this reminded him of me. I'm inclined to agree.

Now, where's my monocle and hat... and fake 'stache?

Right, so the Pre-Christmas potluck is on the 23rd of December for the RSGC Clan + some others. Keyword is 'potluck'.

It's also a secret santa thing so the namelist must be confirmed!

What shall I make?

Roast?

Anyway, it has somewhat dawned upon me that Apple users might have a disability whereby they cannot sample anything because they are so true to Apple and that has become their religion. This is confirmed when a friend of mine, an avid Apple fan, won an amazingly high-tech phone but he wants to sell it because he doesn't care to use it. Of course he's also thinking of the extra money he'll make but that's beside the point.

On another note, I'm looking at buying the Samsung Galaxy tab 10.1 wifi only tablet to replace the laptop because it's getting a wee bit old.
I need to troll Low Yat with a certified tech nerd, a nerd of nerds, that can nerdify nerds at lowyat. Nerding like a bawse.

The weekly agenda:

PHYSIO/OCCU ALL THE WEEKDAYS!
Visit gramma at LD8
YTF with May & Meng?
Pick up my much needed doshies and change it to ringgits
Make delicious desserty things to send to people
Get SOOPAHNACHOOREL from Lord Soso
Dd's party
Finish making costume props
Go costume shopping with the womenfolk
Volunteer rostering and emails to Renee

I cant think of anything else to do...

Next week?
Lunch with the womenfolk @ Crumbs
See Momo
Schedule meetings with the Raffles lot
Pester Nas into going to Levain for delicious bread things
Night out with the bros?

Random updates
Had a facial at Clarins, KLCC.
The twat is playing badminton.
I have problems with people typing o as 0 and it c0ming 0ut like it was written by a m0r0n. WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?!
Ugh... The beginning of the week.

My hair that once had blond streaks is now in the process of becoming red. Hells yeah!

There are several things that are driving me crazy at the moment, a few of which will be written down in my ranty secret blog of ranty-bloggyness because well, I can.

10 minutes before I wash the gunk off my head to reveal some sort of red hue. I'm not quite sure yet what to expect aside from it being red. Trivial. Consider this a random update post to tell you that I'm doing well here in KL. Spoke to Zi and she pretty much convinced me to go register for the RSGC membership as a long term investment and free-time killer. Ordinary membership in one of the most prestigious golf clubs in the heart of KL. Rubbing shoulders with the other bigwigs will be a daily occurrence. And three generations of my family already being members since the end of the world wars. AND and that the hall of fame already has several names I am overly familiar with. I grew up there and made lifetime friends there therefore I want my kids to do the same. I love RSGC. Everybody is somebody there so there's no brown-nosing or no-class OKBs, just friendly faces everywhere.

Add on after lunch:
Went for a year-end prize giving ceremony lunch thing at the Fairway. Didn't get to eat at the Rotunda cos Zi was still sleeping. Oh,well.

My hair is red :D

I should still be alseep. Why am I not alseep? I'm on holiday, damnit!

Oh, yay! May just passed me the phone unlock link. I am happy now that my changgih phone is once again usable! Oh, shit, I just got an invitation to a friend's wedding on the 10th and I have to find a plus one. Then I can wear nice-nice and they can tolak wheelchair. hahahahaha... But seriously, I'd probably die of boredom amidst people I don't know.

What's a wedding if not an excuse to flaunt the bride and groom and free food...

I remember telling a friend of mine who had recently gotten engaged that whoever had been invited, she only needed to worry about the immediate family because as luck would have it, you only saw the rest about once a year.

The in-laws are always another hurdle. There's always SOME problems when it comes to the in-laws. They may like you, they may not like you and so on and so forth.

I'm rambling on, time to practice the guitar.

I stop myself from dishing the dirty details of my inner self into this public blog for fear of judgement.

I am strong -- or I project an image of strength. .
I am stable -- or I project an image of stability.
I am unwavering -- but I can flicker in self doubt.
I am committed -- but I succumb to unsureness.
I am stone cold -- but it's a lie.

On a tangent,
Had a lovely chat with the Momo and the Kim during daylight hours and the Pup during the night.

Things ringing in my head:
I WILL DESTROY YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and
NUGGETS!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm back in KL and waiting to go to my friend's engagement this afternoon. Also I'm hungry and feeling extremely lazy.

Gotta wrap the present... Gotta wrap ALL the presents, even the ones for Christmas!

Was playing almost everywhere in Melbourne. It's a pretty song though.



Seriously, it's been on play for an hour already. Dengar sampai muak.