GRIEF.
A few days ago, the mother of my good friend past away because of cancer. A home is torn apart by that cancer, a family left in shreds. I can only begin to imagine how my friend must feel as he realises the abrupt ending of his mothers love. I can only begin to imagine the pain that must be felt at this moment in time and i can only begin to imagine what is running through is mind as his hindsight begins to haunt him. All i can do is sit and watch in horror, momentarily giving thoughts of prayer and words of comfort. Who am i to tell him it's alright when i know that it's not, who am i to tell him to stop shedding his tears as it wont bring her back when i know that i would do the same. The feeling of helplessness amplified by those around you.
I'm about to leave to his house in a moment to pray and sedekah ayat for his mother. In my eyes, she was a great woman. Always walking tall and unwavering and at the same time so levelled and always ready to help the needy.
I think that if i were in this situation, i would have a severe emotional breakdown. My parents mean the world to me, even if i dont say so, and to lose even one parent would be beyond devestating. I pray that not one persons parents suffer the same fate. Amen.
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P/S:
-I am now the President of the Student Council
-I'm looking for an A'Levels Business teacherto teach me A2. ASAP
-The slow internet is really testing my patients. So is Cempaka's Account department.
Friday, June 23, 2006
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
maluness!
MALUNESS!!!
Refresh:
Yesterday, Em called up asking if i wanted to watch the premier of Scary Movie 4. After much gelabahing, i decided what the hell, why not.
On to KLCC TGV:
Called up Em. Would put the mana-lu skit inside but its pretty mundane. Look for a guy in a bright yellow shirt. I looked. Hello?! Almost every other person is in a bright yellow shirt! It's an Astro event laa... I found Em giving random people some surveys. Said hi and made a quick scan around TGV. Nope, I definitely don't know anyone.
Told Em i had to go in early because of my leg situation (rioting laugh) and he said
"Don't worry lah, I'll carry you," Naturally, i scoffed and explained Newtons Law: The gravity thing with the weight and the fact that the only guy that i would let carry me around was (still is) my father. His turn to scoff...
"I'm strong!" He proclaims. "I've been going to the gym and seriously, I CAN carry you,"
After much eye rolling (i think if i didn't stop rolling my eyes it would eventually roll out) i said i'd think about it. He scurried off in search of things to do leaving me to my devices.
I, natually having this fear of bad-things-happening-when-someone-piggy-backs-you, decided to to take matters into my own hands so i walk towards one of the ticket booths and asked the guy behind the counter (nicely) if he could get someone to get me a wheelchair so i can shove throught the crowd without remorse. The asshole behind the counter pekak so i had to repeat it and then he said i had to talk to the guys behind the food bar. Blithering idiot. I didn't get to ask as Em cornered me and decided to go in (note that the crowd had already started rushing inside) after buying a coke.
Passed the guy who verified your ticket, He decides to carry me. My head screamed that this was a really, really bad idea but do you really stop to listen to yourself? No. So there i was being piggy backed by Em (Surprise, surprise! He could carry me!).
I asked him "Sure or not can carry or are you huffing just cos it's a macho thing?"
and he said (he was running by the way, running or walking really fast) "Of course *huffhuff* can *huffhuff* I'm strong see! *huffhuff* and also, i am macho! *huffhuff*"
and i said "Jeezus, i really should apolagise to your girlfriend when i see her, It's really weird to actually go throught this... Congratts! You're the first guy, other than my dad, to carry me around! Oh, and the coke is starting to spill,"
and the reply from him was 'as well you should," (pass his collegue) "She's handicapped, we're not going out," etcetera, etcetera and so fourth...
Moving On:
We reached cinema 8, where it was showing, and he dropped me inside. Much to my embarrasment, i couldn'd stabilise myself quick enouogh and we both fell. He fell on my leg (much later he joked "You're lucky i know how to distribute my weight, otherwise you'd be in much pain," lol!) and it didn't hurt. I was too mortified that i had so much attention on me. Partly because i was saying 'i'm okay' over and over again and partly because everyone started to stare. So, i looked at the first person i saw and ask him to assist me in standing. Hehehehe... cute guy helped me up... Em helped too. Mucho gratitude! Anyway, that was pretty much an interesting thing to happen on Movie Premier Night and I must say, Scary Movie kicks butt! I'm still laughing.
Here's the facial expressions that i went through...
: Hmm, okay, i'll see you at 8.
: Hey, there!
:Thanks for the invite...
:Gonna need some help geting through that crowd...
: Did you say carry?
:No way!! I'm heavy you know!!!
:You're not kidding...
:Please god, let no shit happen...
:Shit happened...
: I'm so embarrased!
Thanks Em for the lovely invite.
Refresh:
Yesterday, Em called up asking if i wanted to watch the premier of Scary Movie 4. After much gelabahing, i decided what the hell, why not.
On to KLCC TGV:
Called up Em. Would put the mana-lu skit inside but its pretty mundane. Look for a guy in a bright yellow shirt. I looked. Hello?! Almost every other person is in a bright yellow shirt! It's an Astro event laa... I found Em giving random people some surveys. Said hi and made a quick scan around TGV. Nope, I definitely don't know anyone.
Told Em i had to go in early because of my leg situation (rioting laugh) and he said
"Don't worry lah, I'll carry you," Naturally, i scoffed and explained Newtons Law: The gravity thing with the weight and the fact that the only guy that i would let carry me around was (still is) my father. His turn to scoff...
"I'm strong!" He proclaims. "I've been going to the gym and seriously, I CAN carry you,"
After much eye rolling (i think if i didn't stop rolling my eyes it would eventually roll out) i said i'd think about it. He scurried off in search of things to do leaving me to my devices.
I, natually having this fear of bad-things-happening-when-someone-piggy-backs-you, decided to to take matters into my own hands so i walk towards one of the ticket booths and asked the guy behind the counter (nicely) if he could get someone to get me a wheelchair so i can shove throught the crowd without remorse. The asshole behind the counter pekak so i had to repeat it and then he said i had to talk to the guys behind the food bar. Blithering idiot. I didn't get to ask as Em cornered me and decided to go in (note that the crowd had already started rushing inside) after buying a coke.
Passed the guy who verified your ticket, He decides to carry me. My head screamed that this was a really, really bad idea but do you really stop to listen to yourself? No. So there i was being piggy backed by Em (Surprise, surprise! He could carry me!).
I asked him "Sure or not can carry or are you huffing just cos it's a macho thing?"
and he said (he was running by the way, running or walking really fast) "Of course *huffhuff* can *huffhuff* I'm strong see! *huffhuff* and also, i am macho! *huffhuff*"
and i said "Jeezus, i really should apolagise to your girlfriend when i see her, It's really weird to actually go throught this... Congratts! You're the first guy, other than my dad, to carry me around! Oh, and the coke is starting to spill,"
and the reply from him was 'as well you should," (pass his collegue) "She's handicapped, we're not going out," etcetera, etcetera and so fourth...
Moving On:
We reached cinema 8, where it was showing, and he dropped me inside. Much to my embarrasment, i couldn'd stabilise myself quick enouogh and we both fell. He fell on my leg (much later he joked "You're lucky i know how to distribute my weight, otherwise you'd be in much pain," lol!) and it didn't hurt. I was too mortified that i had so much attention on me. Partly because i was saying 'i'm okay' over and over again and partly because everyone started to stare. So, i looked at the first person i saw and ask him to assist me in standing. Hehehehe... cute guy helped me up... Em helped too. Mucho gratitude! Anyway, that was pretty much an interesting thing to happen on Movie Premier Night and I must say, Scary Movie kicks butt! I'm still laughing.
Here's the facial expressions that i went through...
: Hmm, okay, i'll see you at 8. : Hey, there! :Thanks for the invite... :Gonna need some help geting through that crowd... : Did you say carry? :No way!! I'm heavy you know!!! :You're not kidding... :Please god, let no shit happen... :Shit happened... : I'm so embarrased!Thanks Em for the lovely invite.
Monday, June 19, 2006
new term
NEW TERM!
It must be like, Monday blues or something because i have this to say to the new students of Cempaka College: You bunch of whiney ball sucking babies!
But the good thing that came out of today is that i get to watch the premier of Scary Movie 4. Emir has a free ticket so he called me up cos i live in Ampang and everyone else lives in Damansara. Moral of the story is: AMPANG RULES!
Wednesday is election day for precedency of student council. It's at 8am. What kind of sick place has an election at EIGHT IN THE MORNING?! If you guessed Cempaka, you guessed right. I'm a nominee! ngehehehehehe... This shit better be in my CV or i'll murder somebody.
The shit has started. Most likely the trip to eeast coast is happening. List of people asked to tag with would be Neena, Kim, Sel, Mo, Mabs, Chelle, Huby, Chrysta, Jess... I dont know anyone else who would like to come but if YOU do, do tell me ASAP. I hate last minute fools.
Okay, that's enough ranting. See yous.
It must be like, Monday blues or something because i have this to say to the new students of Cempaka College: You bunch of whiney ball sucking babies!
But the good thing that came out of today is that i get to watch the premier of Scary Movie 4. Emir has a free ticket so he called me up cos i live in Ampang and everyone else lives in Damansara. Moral of the story is: AMPANG RULES!
Wednesday is election day for precedency of student council. It's at 8am. What kind of sick place has an election at EIGHT IN THE MORNING?! If you guessed Cempaka, you guessed right. I'm a nominee! ngehehehehehe... This shit better be in my CV or i'll murder somebody.
The shit has started. Most likely the trip to eeast coast is happening. List of people asked to tag with would be Neena, Kim, Sel, Mo, Mabs, Chelle, Huby, Chrysta, Jess... I dont know anyone else who would like to come but if YOU do, do tell me ASAP. I hate last minute fools.
Okay, that's enough ranting. See yous.
Saturday, June 17, 2006
Morning, morning...
MORNING, MORNING...
You know what sucks? Being awake on Saturday morning and its barely 8 am. Okay, so it's now a little something after eight and my stomach hurts. THAT sucks too... I just got the prospectus for University Of Essex yesterday, it took me just ages to find the little button that said 'Get Your Prospectus Here!' or something like that.
Kim slept over Jess's yesterday in anticipation if those who probably never showed. Kesian my babes. Anyway, i wass in slight upheaval that i didn't get to sleep over but was assured that it was actually spur of the moment. It's quite hokay actually, i was full of stuff to do at home actually. I recieved a message from Jess when i woke up asking if i wanted to go for breakkie... Ya, duh! Picking me up at 9 or 9:15. Going to Starbucks at GE Mall. I'm very sure they're open. I've got about 35 minutes to get ready so i'm off to mandi!
This is one boring Saturday post yea? Anyway, i'm on my mum's laptop cos she locked the desktop. Reason being my siblings have exams so the computer is off limits til its over. That sucks too. Anyway, Mom put the laptop in my room, which is why i get to clickety-click bright and early.
Here's a picha i kidnapped from Ki Beum when she showed me a korean blog.
It's the Korrean Sea. Its' so pretty. There were many snow pichas too... but i didn't kidnap them. Toodles!
You know what sucks? Being awake on Saturday morning and its barely 8 am. Okay, so it's now a little something after eight and my stomach hurts. THAT sucks too... I just got the prospectus for University Of Essex yesterday, it took me just ages to find the little button that said 'Get Your Prospectus Here!' or something like that.
Kim slept over Jess's yesterday in anticipation if those who probably never showed. Kesian my babes. Anyway, i wass in slight upheaval that i didn't get to sleep over but was assured that it was actually spur of the moment. It's quite hokay actually, i was full of stuff to do at home actually. I recieved a message from Jess when i woke up asking if i wanted to go for breakkie... Ya, duh! Picking me up at 9 or 9:15. Going to Starbucks at GE Mall. I'm very sure they're open. I've got about 35 minutes to get ready so i'm off to mandi!
This is one boring Saturday post yea? Anyway, i'm on my mum's laptop cos she locked the desktop. Reason being my siblings have exams so the computer is off limits til its over. That sucks too. Anyway, Mom put the laptop in my room, which is why i get to clickety-click bright and early.
Here's a picha i kidnapped from Ki Beum when she showed me a korean blog.
It's the Korrean Sea. Its' so pretty. There were many snow pichas too... but i didn't kidnap them. Toodles!
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
coffee
COFFEE...
Yeap... coffee... lovely most interesting pahit thing that i adore. Maybe i should learn how to be a barista like Paul Bassett (who looks amazing when he's making lattes)
He won the Barista Championship at the age of 25. Whoa. Mamat ni dah kawin... *sigh*
He prefers his coffee black. No milk, no sugar. I shall try no milk no sugar... like my ayah. lol!
Fathers day is upon us! *runs around in panic* I didnt get anything for mommy's day so why should i get something for daddy's day? Cos' i love my ayah lah...
Oh fuggit. I'm hungry. I woke up really late and i havent had lunch. i'll go raid the fridge and make a mocha latte.
Yeap... coffee... lovely most interesting pahit thing that i adore. Maybe i should learn how to be a barista like Paul Bassett (who looks amazing when he's making lattes)
He won the Barista Championship at the age of 25. Whoa. Mamat ni dah kawin... *sigh*
He prefers his coffee black. No milk, no sugar. I shall try no milk no sugar... like my ayah. lol!
Fathers day is upon us! *runs around in panic* I didnt get anything for mommy's day so why should i get something for daddy's day? Cos' i love my ayah lah...
Oh fuggit. I'm hungry. I woke up really late and i havent had lunch. i'll go raid the fridge and make a mocha latte.
Monday, June 12, 2006
thinking outloud
THINKING OUTLOUD...
And thats what i've been doing these past few days. Unfortunately, nobody wants to help think after exams. *sigh*
Road trip! *squack* Let's go to one of the east coast beaches/islands somewhere in July (Either mid or after 22nd). I narrowed it down to Cherating, Perhentian or Redang but i haven't got the budget yet. As we all know, everything is determined by 'the budget'. I haven't yet got a full list of people coming so, if you wanna tag with, send me and email or something.
P/S: Have you ever cought yourself doing something you SWORE you'd never do?
And thats what i've been doing these past few days. Unfortunately, nobody wants to help think after exams. *sigh*
Road trip! *squack* Let's go to one of the east coast beaches/islands somewhere in July (Either mid or after 22nd). I narrowed it down to Cherating, Perhentian or Redang but i haven't got the budget yet. As we all know, everything is determined by 'the budget'. I haven't yet got a full list of people coming so, if you wanna tag with, send me and email or something.
P/S: Have you ever cought yourself doing something you SWORE you'd never do?
Friday, June 09, 2006
HELL FREEZES AND IT'S OVER.
It's over. Exams are over. For most of my college mates: college is over. As it goes for me, i'll miss them thoroughly. *sigh* Somehow, i think the title is abit too much.
No more being a prat and talking shit about our teachers, no more hanging out in the common room, no more playing a little bit of pool, no more hearing obscene laughter from each other, no more lunches in the canteen, no more gossips, no more free chauffeurs to the mamak stalls, no more tutorial copying. No more. It's quite sad really.
But enough of dwelling in the deep recesses of old, we who are not going overseas must go fourth and make a point to hang out more. lol.
Up, will be some old pichas.
Yah, fun times.
Let's see who sticks around and who leaves shall we?
It's over. Exams are over. For most of my college mates: college is over. As it goes for me, i'll miss them thoroughly. *sigh* Somehow, i think the title is abit too much.
No more being a prat and talking shit about our teachers, no more hanging out in the common room, no more playing a little bit of pool, no more hearing obscene laughter from each other, no more lunches in the canteen, no more gossips, no more free chauffeurs to the mamak stalls, no more tutorial copying. No more. It's quite sad really.
But enough of dwelling in the deep recesses of old, we who are not going overseas must go fourth and make a point to hang out more. lol.
Up, will be some old pichas.
Yah, fun times.
Let's see who sticks around and who leaves shall we?
Friday, June 02, 2006
Pirates!!!
PIRATES!!!
Eh, no. I'm kidding... i was gonna quote 'Happy Fuzzy Fun Time' and say the pirates attacked but we repelled them but its a bit sad... But, hey, look! I just did it anyway!!!
My Brothers and Dad went to Car-con at PWTC... My bro kidnapped my cell for the sake of a free gift from maxis and so i told him to snap some good pichas so i can post them. I hope they dont come across Con-bunnies... they irk me.
I spend my day today looking for things to burn onto CD to play on my awesomest sounds system and reading webcomics. Maybe one day when i have a place in California i can attend a comic con and have a little fun... haha! Hey, comics are fun you know.
I'm listening to Chumbawumba now... pelik tau how some songs trigger stupid needs to pummel someone... 34, 46, Hike, Hike! *smashpummelroll* Baheeheehee!!! Oh, wait... could be becasue its says 'I get knocked down,' hahaha!!!
Later, i'm going to doodle the angel and devil version of me. Sure chun sial... I have to figure out what outfits gonna play on... then you'll see it on the blog more often. Depending on how sedate the post is. Got the idea whist reading Devils Panties. Its a webcomic not satanic porn!
Click HERE to read it.
Things to watch:
- X3
- Over The Hedge
- Slither (although i highly doubt it'll be on in Malaysia)
- Benchwarmers
- Cars
- Scary Movie 4
CD's to buy:
- RHCP's Stadium Arcadium
Books to buy:
- Tom Holt written ones.
Have i mentioned that i aspire to be a highly paid mega corporate bitch? Well, there it is.
I can't think of anything else so cheeries!
Eh, no. I'm kidding... i was gonna quote 'Happy Fuzzy Fun Time' and say the pirates attacked but we repelled them but its a bit sad... But, hey, look! I just did it anyway!!!
My Brothers and Dad went to Car-con at PWTC... My bro kidnapped my cell for the sake of a free gift from maxis and so i told him to snap some good pichas so i can post them. I hope they dont come across Con-bunnies... they irk me.
I spend my day today looking for things to burn onto CD to play on my awesomest sounds system and reading webcomics. Maybe one day when i have a place in California i can attend a comic con and have a little fun... haha! Hey, comics are fun you know.
I'm listening to Chumbawumba now... pelik tau how some songs trigger stupid needs to pummel someone... 34, 46, Hike, Hike! *smashpummelroll* Baheeheehee!!! Oh, wait... could be becasue its says 'I get knocked down,' hahaha!!!
Later, i'm going to doodle the angel and devil version of me. Sure chun sial... I have to figure out what outfits gonna play on... then you'll see it on the blog more often. Depending on how sedate the post is. Got the idea whist reading Devils Panties. Its a webcomic not satanic porn!
Click HERE to read it.
Things to watch:
- X3
- Over The Hedge
- Slither (although i highly doubt it'll be on in Malaysia)
- Benchwarmers
- Cars
- Scary Movie 4
CD's to buy:- RHCP's Stadium Arcadium
Books to buy:- Tom Holt written ones.
Have i mentioned that i aspire to be a highly paid mega corporate bitch? Well, there it is.
I can't think of anything else so cheeries!
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