There was a moment this afternoon when I felt like I wasn't really there. I wasn't really in front of the counter at my friends' cafe laughing and sharing wit. Like everything around me wasn't really real. B-grade cinema quality, dim lights, that feeling where you're an overseer -- like in a dream. It was really unsettling for me because I knew it was real, I knew I was there but it's like my soul wasn't. It was terrifying and liberating at the same time.