Sha Makes Art

I'd like to start off this post by saying that inertia is a bitch.

I say that because I want to do so many different things, make so many artefacts, cook all the food, project all the light and... I just want to do.

The creative process has always been at my core, though it might not be accepted as a process per-se BUT you who are not me will never know what it is to be me, to be in my shoes so I'd like you to please get off whatever educated what-school-so-and-so high horse you're on and accept that the creative process is as different as the creatures that live on this planet.

BUT these endeavours need money.

I literally have a list of things to do which I haven't started because of inertia.

A part of me is also scared of the possibility of winning so hard that there is an expectation put upon me to create more along the same strains. I don't want to.

I want to make what I want to make, when I want to make them.

I dislike deadlines.

I have a list.

I have a list of things to do.

For some of the items on this list, I need a team.

If only because I am not physically capable of doing various things.

For some others, I can do alone.

If only because it is not a physically taxing process.

Also........... I need to flush out my to-do list so I can PATREONNNNNNNNNNNNN YAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

Also, also,
This was something I wrote.

"Anarchists never go with the flow.

They are the black sheep

The stray yarn that you pull and tug until the whole world unravels

Burning in flames as the rest scream

And cry

Like a body without a head

Running

In circles until it too

Drops

To the floor

Cold

I like order

But

One must also understand that

Chaos is the way of the universe and there can only be order through chaos."

Sometimes I write things that sounds really pretty but has no place whatever I'm writing so I dump it here.

This is today's:

"Malaysia, the blood on which is spilt -- home -- is pregnant with intricacies known only by her people will be represented by a cultured society instead of one muddied by capitalism and greed."

I'm reading (I say reading but I'm just speeding through the audiobook) The 4-Hour Work Week by Tim Ferris as suggested by Tijana. So far, it's brilliant!
http://fourhourworkweek.com/

What it posits:
1. What am I afraid of?
2. What would excited me? (Boredom is the enemy)
     Dreamlining:
4. What would you do if there were no way you could fail, if you were 10 times smarter than everyone? 6 months and 12 months, 5 things you dream of having, being and doing.
5. What would you do if you had all the money in the bank? What excites you into waking up the next day?

Time paused:  1:40:08 (Chapter 5)

I am 29, the last year of my 20s. Last year to be an utter shite as a 20-something. Next year I get to be an utter shite as a 30 year old.

But to commemorate me turning 29 and singing my own birthday song in the shower, here's 29 things I've accomplished at 29:

1. Was born.
2. Graduated High School
3. Graduated with a degree in Interior Design
4. Stayed in another country for 4 years
5. Made and kept good company
6. Got a cat.
7. Went on travelling adventures even with limited mobility.
8. Kept in touch with important people in my life
9. Got my Open Water Diving Licence.
10. Is part of an effort to cure SMA.
11. Started testing Salbutamol on myself for SCIENCE!
12. Decided that employment in a company that doesn't value you is the worst way to live life.
13. Started doing personal projects for personal amusement
14. Keeping up with an exercise regiment for my muscular health
15. Am pleased with the person I am but know that there's always space for growth and that, in life, one never stops learning
16. Making art regularly that is not ego-centric but self teaching
17. Started trading of the FX market on a demo account and keeping logs on it
18. Am doing a course of Project Management on Coursera
19. Am doing a course on Greek and Roman mythology on Coursera
20. I have my own website
21. I'd turned my name into a brand
22. I've used my name as one part of a Design Collective called Aubergine
23. I have a substantial board and card game collection which is ever expanding
24. Is pretty good in beginner's French, and getting better
25. Is not controlled by others opinions
26. Has come to terms with the thing people call 'emotions'
27. Family is intact and well
28. Has a life goal and a rough plan
29. I'm still alive.

Happy Birthday to me! (Even though it was a mediocre year)

Okay, so I'm horrible at keeping up with my posts for IAMOGP.

So here's a backdated updat from the last 2 weeks summarised into one sentence:
I feel stronger, maybe.
(Dumbells getting to be more manageable, might be able to increase in a month, ditto with cardio intensity.)

Aside from that... Patreon?
Mini Projects that I should be arsed to do every month?
RESIN CRAFT/JEWELLERY making?
Art.

Aaaaaaaaaart. I should really get started.

I have no raison d'être.

:(

On another note,

This just happened... (click to read.)

And then I photoshopped the poster appropriately...

Took half an hour and it's because I was bored.

It's been 4 days since the daily IAMOGP update. I've decided to now continue it weekly because there's really nothing to talk about. IAMOGP updates every Sunday.
I'm also down to my last two pills and I have to get more tomorrow. Ehee.
Actually, I have bought a new set of pills. 100x 4mg.

Period's here and the bloat is real.

Fairy Tail is on hiatus. I know this because I've just gotten up to date with all. ALL. Episodes. Laxus is hot... So is Gray. T-T
I guess I have to find something else to binge-watch.

I don't feel like doing anything for my birthday anymore. Thought I wanted to do a Lousiana seafood boil but in the end... I really cant be bothered.

Also,also...
Where was THIS when I was in Uni??? It sure would've helped me make better folios I tell you.

I AM MY OWN GUINEA PIG!!! (IAMOGP) -- or eeamogupuh for short.)

Day 6 2mg, twice a day
First Dose at 8AM
Second Dose at about 4PM
Heart Palpitations: None

Thoughts:

Physio/Occu at PPUM, 830AM to 12-ish AM.
20 minutes stationary bike, Wasn't paying attention
15 minutes arm cycling.
3 reps: 2lb Bicep curls x12, front raises x12 ; 4lb shrugs x12
20 minutes leg push thingy but the machine looks like a giant old-skool sewing machine.
30 minute standing with the standing machine.

A bit of a slow, crummy kind of day. Period definitely on the way.

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I AM MY OWN GUINEA PIG!!! (IAMOGP) -- or eeamogupuh for short.)

Day 7 2mg, twice a day
First Dose at 2:15PM
Second Dose at about pm
Heart Palpitations: None

Thoughts: Actually no thoughts today.

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Binge read New Normal: Class 8. It's really good but since I binged it... I HAVE TO WAIT FOR EVERY SUNDAY FOR THE NEXT PIECE. >:(

I AM MY OWN GUINEA PIG!!! (IAMOGP) -- or eeamogupuh for short.)

Day 5 2mg, twice a day
First Dose at 12:15PM
Second Dose at about 10pm
Heart Palpitations: None

Thoughts: Not much to comment on today. Stayed at home. I think my period is on the way so legs are taking a bit of a beating and back hurts.

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Okay, I admit to having a soft spot for the dead fat F* Jabba the hutt.
His lines are pretty awesome.

http://www.completewermosguide.com/hutttranscript.html

On to...
I AM MY OWN GUINEA PIG!!! (IAMOGP) -- or eeamogupuh for short.)

Day 4 2mg, twice a day
First Dose at 7:45AM
Second Dose at about 4pm
Heart Palpitations: None

Thoughts:
Physio/Occu at PPUM, 830AM to 10-ish AM.
20 minutes stationary bike, Level 2. Right leg dominant.
15 minutes arm cycling, Level 3 (5m), Level 2 (10m).
3 reps: 2lb Bicep curls x12, front raises x12 ; 4lb shrugs x12
15 minutes leg push thingy but the machine looks like a giant old-skool sewing machine.

The two-pound dumbells were... slightly lighter. Again, I'm not sure if this is all psychosomatic and I'm making all of it up but I'm pretty sure this Salbutamol thing is sort of maybe working.

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On a side note,

Anti-feminist bullshit that is unfounded has made its rounds again -- as it does every year.
Please, read this https://everydaygeopoliticshouston.wordpress.com/2015/04/10/a-reply-to-lauren-southerns-why-im-not-a-feminist/

It is imperative that you go through all the links she provided as well as go through the comments. Just read the entire thing.

On to...
I AM MY OWN GUINEA PIG!!! (IAMOGP) -- or eeamogupuh for short.)

Day 3: 2mg, twice a day
First Dose at1PM
Second Dose at about 11pm
Heart Palpitations: None

Thoughts: Did not sleep well, not really sure why, maybe taking Salbutamol too late? I don't know.
But I had a mediocre steak... Red meat is still red meat no matter how mediocre it is.