Good day to all!
I remembered I hads teh photobukkits and OMG YAY DIMSUM FOR LUNCH! wait... yeah, so teh photobukkits has teh emoticons.  And I'm gonna be using it more now, because you need to know what my facial expression is.

4 more weeks of internship to go.
Last month and a half of classes.
Paying RMIT deposit next week.
I'm so excited!

TEDxYouth@KL was good :D
Was a Delegate, thanks to JY.

November will be over in a week and a half which means paycheck and pocket money. Ha-ha.
Paycheck will not be saved because it is peanuts and I need the dosh right now.

Out with Meers and Panda tonight, hoping more will come and join.

Sometimes I wonder why I torture myself by watching certain types of movies. You know, the ones that give you an inkling of HOPE. As if I thought I could take it to heart and suddenly become all flowers, butterflies and unicorns.

The prospects of such a thing is a wonderful thought but it's also terrifying.
Ideas of a shattered barricade, a failed great wall in shambles.
No more laser beam super forcefield that deflects the kind of feelings associated with...

...  that.

*tilts head*
I can't even say it without feeling my throat sink to my gut.

I get panic attacks just thinking about it.
Something I cannot predict or prepare for.
An idea that would, more often than not, leave me in severe discomfort.
Falling.

I can say it in jest or to certain people but I have never really meant it in respect to... Oh, screw it.

My fingers run over the keyboard, dictating the thoughts that fill my head but some words don't fall in line and changed, get written and then erased or were just never put there in the first place. The word that everyone shouts, screams, whispers, mutters and boldly states on the rooftops towards the world.
It's terrifying. It's so terrifying that I make myself not want to get into that situation because I have only myself to protect.

Fear.

I find myself in the uncomfortable throws of stimulus. Uncomfortable. Unpredictable. Unrelenting. Possibly unreq-... No, the last one isn't it.

Number of mini panic attacks today?
2

Delayed Gratification

An everywoman

The everyman

The poet

The pauper

The king.

The youth,

An abundance,

What is wanted,

Now,

Here,

Fast.

The wait that was once done

No more

Nevermore.

We do not wait for those things,

They wait for us.

For us,

So long,

So far,

 Unchanged.

We change,

We wane,

We slack.

And hack-

And hack-

And hack.

Our soul consumed

An eternal fire of complications.

We cannot wait.

Procrastination,

Tardiness,

General ignorance to time.

But we cannot wait.

We want

We want

We need

We want.

Nevermore the waiting game.

Summary: In light of the youth's inability to process delayed gratification (as well as other more important things in life), we're all fucked.

Christmas presents list! WARGH!
Gotta write down that list and go present hunting for both the Secret Santa AND the usual presents.
*checks who's been naughty and nice*
The bad kids get... NOTHING!

Also, cos I'm kind of... bajet... your presents wont be expensive but know that I still love you. :D

Also wik,
My friends are awesome. Like, so totally awesome.
*hair flip*

Eagle Eye Cherry - Are You Still Havin Fun chords
KIV for jam session due sometime soon.
mwahahaha...

WARGH GREEN LANTERN 2011!

Had a jamming session with my once-a-year-only-meet (well, now twice) second cousins, the boys probably wont be meeting up with so often but Elissa, definitely. Her house is behind mine. Got to check if the drum kit is fixed but me and the littlest brother are going to visit one a week or once every two weeks for repeated jamming sessions.

I es vocalist, going to test my pig squeals, death growls and melodious tunes behind the mic.
Maybe I can try playing the bass and relearn some guitar as I go along.

I miss jamming sessions.
I want more jamming sessions.

Littlest brother's friend, Mikey, is a drummer. We drag him go jamming now.

Oh, I forgot to say that the usually quiet Raya Haji was suddenly full of visiting people... Manly because these rellies didn't do anything for Raya Puasa.
And... I... Ate... ALOT.

Quite is actually quite interesting :)
I'm glad I went.

Had a quick smoke session with the girls and the bloke.

In Kim's words: Canoodling.

Ha-ha very funny, Kim, very funny.
There was something but it definitely wasn't canoodling.

Half day omg yay!
I get to loaf around at home... yay!

Things I cannot do... Yet...
- Paintball -- Actually I could always go with my scooter and armour. I'm a tank pew-pew!
- Rock Climbing -- which, if I tried, would turn into 'Belay pull me up to the top so I can touch base' No climbing involved.
- Wear killer heels -- I will... eventually. There's a reason why it's called killer heels. You can stab someone on the jugular with it and they'd die. *shrugs*
- Run up a flight of stairs -- I. Hate. Stairs.

WTF where do all these ants come from?! And why are they marching towards my keyboard and going nowhere in particular? AntCon? *flips table*

P/S: Corporate heresy and deskjobs are bad for my soul.

Memo note to self: Sunday dinner, 21st November, Bangers and Mash with grilled vegetables and onion gravy.
I'm cooking every Sunday now until bibik comes back. Perhaps week after next i'll try to make some Malaysian dishes intead of relying on super simple matsaleh dishes.

Going to Quite (The art exhibition) on Tuesday evening, I think. OMFG! QUITE!
I'm kind of excited to see the exhibits. Ehehehehe!
Can't go on Wednesday because it's Raya Haji whereby I'm not sure if I've got anything or not. Should ask dad.

Kaz's Mediterranean-Middle Eastern Pre Christmas BBQ on the 3rd of December!
Yay! Confirmed except for the budget. Is the +1 confirmed though? Will ask later.

I'm seeing Mark on the 27th of Nov, Adam's back on the 15th of Dec. :D

Things that frequently happen to me:
- Being carried while on a chair (doesn't matter what kind of chair) by the blokes because I refuse to move from that spot. Meh.

A friend of mine had a weird dream last night and I was in it, set five years in the future.
*gets permission to post*

X:(10:34 AM):

*I had a weird dream last night

Me:(10:34 AM):

*oh yeah?

X:(10:35 AM):

*You know one of those set in the future but feels super real as if you were actually awake and you have false memories of the time between you fell asleep and when the dream began.

*You were in it though

X:(10:36 AM):

*Set 5 years in the future. I was working at the travel company still and was also just starting up my company.

Me:(10:37 AM):

*fwoaarr... i get dreams where it's set in an alternate earth... everything's sort of different but it feels the same and usually... there are zombies. hahahaha

*then?

X:(10:37 AM):

*Mostly it was me going to peoples weddings traveling and working

*I missed your wedding

Me:(10:38 AM):

*watafaaaaaaaj?

*my wedding?

X:(10:38 AM):

*Yea xD

*Yea

*Hahahaha

Me:(10:40 AM):

*omg... what a ... weird thing for me to do in 5 years

*the guy had better be up to par

*hahaha

X:(10:41 AM):

*It was (person's name here) hahaha

Me:(10:41 AM):

*omaigawd...

*.........................

*tak leh blah....

**headdesk*

X:(10:41 AM):

*Hehehe

Me:(10:42 AM):

*mainly because i have obscene standards if i had to marry the guy

*and... well... no one's come close to the batting range yet

HAHAHAH (person's name here)

*-__________________-

X:(10:43 AM):

*Yea.... It was shotgun

Me:(10:43 AM):

*that is so strange

*what else?

*surely there's more to it

X:(10:44 AM):

*You were upset with me because my ex was at the wedding

*You didn't like the guy

Me:(10:44 AM):

*HAHAHAHA...

*which one is this?

*stalker boy?

X:(10:45 AM):

*Nope a future ex

Me:(10:45 AM):

*oooooo

X:(10:45 AM):

*5'10 Malay guy

Me:(10:45 AM):

*good looking?

X:(10:46 AM):

*Pretty good according to you... He brought his new gf

Me:(10:46 AM):

*omg now you have to tell the whole thing -- even if it's segmented and you don't remember-- in complete sentences and arcs

*hahahahaha

X:(10:48 AM):

*Okay so it starts with me waking up in my very own apartment. (wooo!!) get into my car and head to the gym (it's a Sunday) and you ring me while in on the treadmill telling me off

*You are saying I'm awful for not turning up for the wedding and I was all "it was an emergency I had to go to (random Chinese sounding place name) to sort out the factory.. I got back this morning" and then you were ranting that my scummy ex brought his new gf to your wedding (days after he broke up with me) and that all hot guys were jerks

Me:(10:52 AM):

*hahahaha...

X:(10:53 AM):

*After that we met up for lunch and saw Skankyhoe* in a distance pushing a baby stroller and you were shaking your head

Me:(10:53 AM):

*HAAAAAHAHAHAHA

X:(10:53 AM):

*Then we end up going shopping for your wedding gift (I didn't get one yet)

Me:(10:53 AM):

*it had better not be a vase

*hahahaha

X:(10:54 AM):

*Hmmm.... Freaky

*During lunch I was like "about your wedding gift" and you were like "no vase please"

Me:(10:54 AM):

*HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

*i think i say that one too many times

*your subconsious picked it up

X:(10:55 AM):

*You made me buy a washing machine

Me:(10:55 AM):

*omfg hahahahahahaha

*i doan know how to use a washing machine

*im useless that way

X:(10:55 AM):

*Yea it had one button that says start/stop that's it

*Anyhow afterwards I travel around for work and meet an old guy friend who is from the future (he just got divorced) and I go for dinner with him I wake up

Me:(11:00 AM):

*i hate waking up from movie dreams

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Anyway, shortly after those lines she explains that it was shotgun cos I got preggers by the FWB and decided, and i quote, "What the hell let's get married could do worse."

The best part though? In that dream I had to only work 2 months a year. Score, bitches.